Finding my Passion

While picking through the ruins of our relationship after the tornado hit, I discovered a little jewel of realization within the rubble.  I sat in my home, day after day, feeling lost with nothing to do and nowhere to go, wondering what happened to the life I had BEFORE him.  What happened to my hobbies? What happened to my interests and my passions?

What I discovered was that my hobbies and interests had become merely habits and, when I was presented with something new and interesting, I easily pushed the yoga and the gardening to the side to follow his hobbies and interests. Now, with this new hunk of time on my hands, I’m attempting to discover what my passions are now.  It’s going to take some experimentation and some trial and error – and some big strides outside of my comfort zone.

Over the past few months, I’ve fallen back into my love of cooking, but with a twist of focusing on gelato and canning.  I’ve also started attending a ceramics wheel-throwing class, something I have never done before.  I’m trying not to get too tied up in the results, but enjoying the process (of getting very messy and learning something new).

So, with my newly found ceramics “skills” (using that term loosely), here is my very first bowl from my very first ceramics class:

Baby, You’ve become a Habit to Me

How many days does it take to stop a habit or create a new one?  My friend, Paul, says 30 days.  With a Google search, it seems that the majority of sites claim 21 (probably one person on Google said it and everyone has just repeated it).

Well, according to Phillippa Lally of University College (I recommend Googling her – this girl does not look like she’s old enough to attend college), who has done a ton of research on the subject, it takes an average of 66 days to start or break a habit.

66 days.  Holy crap.

I’ve been tracking  my (lack of) contact with my ex in hopes that, after 30 days, it would become habit and I wouldn’t have to think about it anymore.

It’s been 26 days.  I have 40 more to go.  I’m only 39% there.  It’s a long road.


Days since I’ve contacted my ex:  26

Days since I’ve searched for my ex: 6

What I am grateful for: Losing my appetite from the heartbreak.  I’m 14 pounds lighter.