Fit to Print

Butterkuchen

Today, I’ve completed scouring my blog of all that may appall or offend those who think they “really know” me. In the beginning, in 2008, my blog was a journal of my raw, uncensored thoughts and feelings. Nothing was off limits –my entire chaotic life and ugly thoughts were blog fodder.  Over the years, and without realizing it, my posts have morphed into a sort of food blog – light on what’s happening in my head and heavy on what’s going in mouth –or burning in my kitchen.

This metamorphosis left me in a quandary. Because this blog was entirely uncensored, those who knew me best were not permitted to read it – boyfriends were unaware it existed, friends and family warned to stay away. After much indecision, I’ve decided to share my blog in its new food-centric form, veneered into a friend- and-family-friendly version.  Sadly, this meant hiding the more shocking bits from my readers. It’s heartbreaking to tuck away 6 ½ years of writing somewhere unreachable.

My plans aren’t to write just another food blog – there are hundreds already out there, better written and with finer photographs than anything I could produce. This is a portrait of my life’s messy ordeals and triumphs, narrated through my kitchen exploits – the bastard child of Bridget Jones and Anthony Bourdain – in print. Watch me test life’s recipes in search of contentment while simultaneously attempting those for the ultimate butterkuchen, covered with shards of sugar crust.

German Butter Cake
**adapted from a recipe of unknown origin

Cake
2 eggs
75 g sugar
150 g melted unsalted butter
140 g all-purpose flour
2 teaspoon baking powder
pinch salt
1/2 teaspoon almond extract
100 ml whole milk

Topping
75 g unsalted butter
75 g sugar
1,5 tablespoon all-purpose flour
1 tablespoon whole milk

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Butter and sugar an 8” square pan. Whisk sugar and eggs until thick and pale. Combine flour, baking powder and salt. Add Almond extract to milk. Mix butter into sugar and eggs. Add half of the milk an, half of the flour- mixture and combine. Add the remaining milk and flour and stir. Pour into pan and cook for 15-20 minutes until the center is just set.

Meanwhile make the topping: Place all ingredients in to a pan and let come to boil. Take the half-baked cake out of the oven, spread the topping on the cake and bake until a skewer inserted in the middle of the cake comes out clean and the topping is golden, 15-20 minutes longer.

Derailed

I’ve been derailed– on many levels.  I’ve turned all my focus on work and, even when it comes to work, I haven’t had any drive lately – just going through the motions.  My gelato project has been tucked away behind closed desk doors in my home office.  I haven’t worked on it in months. I’ve gained weight – a lot of weight – eleven pounds since May.

I’m finishing up my last work project for the year this week.  After that, I have four days of rest and relaxation (and six spa appointments) at Miraval to rejuvenate myself and get back into my groove.  Get on track, girl!  The next two months are light with work so I’m recommitting myself to the “Life” part of the proverbial work/life balance.

Goals for the next two months:

  1. Get in shape/Lose eight pounds
  2. Start (and finish) main bathroom remodel
  3. Re-energize gelato dreams/business plan
  4. Upgrade my surrounding (replace outdated 1980’s chair and buy flat screen TV, paint)
  5. Research options for adding A/C to the house (not another sweltering summer)
  6. Replace tree that died in backyard & clean up front yard
  7. Blog regularly again!

I’m worried that I’m biting off more than I can chew – especially trying to do this over the holidays, but, if I wait until the new year, I have a string of projects that will carry me away until Summer.