I don’t think I can do this. Why does this dating thing need to be so difficult? We had a great weekend together. He said he was happy. He introduced me to his friends – they gave me “thumbs up”. This week, however, things seem off. We have vague plans for tonight or tomorrow night, nothing that he’s confirmed and I haven’t heard from him today at all. In the beginning, he was making plans to see me again during our dates. Now, it’s a “Maybe Wednesday or Thursday – I’ll let you know.” I’m checking my email obsessively. I’m the one suggesting activities now. Am I really going to cancel my Thursday yoga practice for this?
A little more research showed me his profile isn’t down, as I had thought (boo!). It’s just down to me. He’s just hidden it from me, but not from the rest of the dating world. That stings.
I can’t be this vulnerable. It hurts too much. I’m spending too much of my time thinking about him. I hate when I act like a girl. Friends say I’m tough. If only they knew the truth.
I like him, a lot. That’s a rare reaction for me, but I can’t do this any more. I need to give him his space. He obviously doesn’t feel the same as I do. I need to focus on my work, on my yoga, on anything but him. God, I hate this.
Editor’s note: He finally sent me a text at 2 p.m. today.