A certain guy has been on my mind all day. I smile every time he comes into my thoughts.
He sent me a picture yesterday. I’ve placed in on the corner of my computer screen to alleviate my need to visit my email box every few hours for a look.
I’m smitten. He’s adorable – well, adorable by my standards, which probably aren’t the norm. I’m attracted to tall, skinny guys with glasses – if they happen to have a visible scar, so much the better. This guy is tall, skinny with glasses – he’s also funny, smart and creative – in a word, adorable.
I don’t know how he feels about me – probably reason numero uno he’s on my mind so much. We met briefly and we’ve been emailing inconsistently since. He’s been on the East Coast for a holiday visit, but, from my perspective, his trip has been interminable. In actuality, it’s only been 2 1/2 weeks. He’s coming home this weekend. Finally!
I want him to ask me out on a date – break this uncertainty. On the other hand, this uncertainty breeds my desire. There’s been times I have met someone who made me think, “wow!”, only to be disappointed with the reality. I think everyone does it – we fill in the unknown with our own suppositions of this person’s character to meet our desires. The reality is much less attractive.
But I want to know him – I cannot remain in this grey area much longer. My impatience is strong. Ask me out, damn it!