Yes, our roles have reversed. The difference is, however, that those many years ago, you placed yourself in that situation without any prompting from me. I set the boundaries hard from the beginning – your continued torch carrying and hopefulness were from your own heart, not my encouragement.
It was you who pulled me into my situation. Why would you do that? Was it conscious? Were you being careless with my heart? Was it so that I could suffer with the longing you felt for so many years? So I could be your equal in feeling splayed, exposed, and suspended? Why would you start something just to keep it undone? I was fine with the way things were – now, I don’t want to go back.