We’re in a severe economic crisis, I realize that. Because my life has stayed relatively stable throughout the turmoil, I haven’t paid much attention to the details, going about my life as usual..la-dee-da. Well, today, the crisis and my life collided – Wham!
My job consists of managing about ten to 15 projects a year. With the struggling economy, my projects were reduced to about three or four for 2009 – slower, but still enough to keep me busy through the year. Around 3:00 today, Ms. Boss, almost unaware of what she was saying, told me that I needed to provide her with the details on how much the company would lose if we cancelled these remaining projects…uh, that doesn’t sound good. They don’t think they want to move forward with any projects until October 2009. No projects, no reason to keep me around.
Its been a long time since I’ve updated my resume. I finished the first draft about 15 minutes ago. I haven’t look for a job in eight years. I don’t want to start. But, I also don’t want to be foolish – I need to prepare myself for what’s almost inevitable. I love my job and I feel like leaving it would be akin to a divorce. My husband doesn’t want me anymore. I’m a little shell-shocked this evening.